You guys will not believe how many drafts I have for this blog at the moment. I know it seems like I have forgotten everything but no. I stumbled upon a few difficulties and I don't know how to bounce back from it and continue writing my Chapter 21 series. I just need to settle a lot of things that's going on at the moment and I will refine and publish those drafts. I am quite demotivated because the memories are not that fresh and my feelings and thoughts might not be as raw as my previous posts. I also have trouble putting it into words and into this blog. So it sometimes needs me to be in the right mood for it. Another problem I might encounter is when I am in the mood, I might choose to write my book instead of my blog. So that would delay the whole blog post publishing as well.
Plus, Chapter 21 has not ended yet. I have so many more to say about my journey into being 21 and I am still experiencing it, writing my own path and what not. It is on going. With that, I might be publishing things out of order though the archive would still be in order depending on when it happened and when I started writing them. So ya da ya da ya da. I don't know why I am explaining this to you. Maybe I am so frustrated seeing all these drafts and this long hiatus is KILLING me.
I don't know, I am sure I will get all of this arranged. It's so hard to maintain and commit to something, isn't it?
My name is Aina Yasmin Binti Zulhaime and I am just 21. I am an independent female that has a lot of opinions that are not at all organized. Writing is a way of me trying to organize them and help me in thinking and a reminder to always do better analysis before having a stand because I can't stand people who blindly agree or disagree on something. Hence, I try to avoid becoming what I despise. I am a Malay in Malaysia so English is not my mother tongue but it is a language I use a lot. I am very rooted to my Malay culture, I like wearing baju kurung (though I don't always), I still wear batik at home, I can cook Malay food and I even took up Silat for martial arts.
I am a choleric and I have a strong temperament. I have been in leadership settings for almost 7 years. I am cheerful and friendly in a new environment but gets quite groggy if things are not going as planned or if things happening are against what I stand. A control freak? Well, not really because I always know where I stand but do not like it if a fault would be highlighted back to me if it was not in my control. I love having deep conversations that can get my mind running and listen to other people's opinion because it trains me to drown my ego and be respectful of others. Oh yeah, did I mention I am in a debate club?
A very choosy crowd mingle-r. I love to surround myself with people who won't judge me and who would notice my existence because I tend to feel left out in a crowd and I don't like to be in control and pretentious all the time. I have my place in formal settings so I don't need my friends to want me be that person in a casual setting. I am totally single not because I don't want a relationship or nobody interest me. I am stuck in between trying and letting it happen so I am in a lot of conflicts regarding my love life but I choose to put it at the side most of the time. I am all about taking chances. I don't want to look at my life 20 years from now and find out it was dull. I take the word 'responsibilities' seriously when it involves someone else but not so much when it concerns only me because stress is not how I tend to live my life.
So basically this blog is me, trying to tell people how I see things and hopefully manage to inspire readers to stop standing there and do something. There's always a place for everyone in this world.